Adam Joseph Westwood- Too perfect for this world

I look back at my blog and it was a month ago that I shared my glorious news with the blogging world. At that moment, all was right in my world. Everything was finally coming together and I remember often thinking that my world was near perfection. I spent every commute to work in silence, either thanking my Heavenly Father for this blessing, or talking to my baby and expressing my love for him. I told Scott many times that our life was never going to be the same. And that statement still holds true but in a totally different way. Our beautiful, perfect baby boy, Adam Joseph Westwood was born early, much too early. He made a huge impact on us in the short time he was alive. He gave us the gift of being parents, a term that can never be erased from us now.

Although we hold tight to our belief that we are an eternal family, our hearts still ache, and at moments the pain is so intense. All those dreams and plans we had thought of for our baby boy will have to wait 'til we meet again.

And now Christmas has arrived way too quickly. I can't help but think that we would have found tomorrow that we were having a boy. Yet I've already met my boy and his work is done here on the earth.

I still look at pictures of him and try to figure out who he looks like. The nurse said she saw me in him. But I saw so much of Scott in him. From his face to his cute hands and fingernails that are identical to Scott's. Adam looked like Westwood boys and I love that.

At this time of year, I have never felt more love for my Savior and needed his love so much. I'm so grateful for this Christmas time when we can celebrate Him, and can now celebrate Adam each year as well. Adam must have known that Christmas time is my favorite time of the year. Each year we'll continue to look forward to celebrating our son and the birth of the Savior.

I'll share more about our experience in the future. But for now, I'll just share some pictures of our son.